Vanity…

When we moved to Colorado, my contacts quit working for me.

I mean, my eyes were so dry they hurt, thanks to a new dryer climate, it became evident soon after moving, I couldn’t do contacts anymore – unless I wanted to look like I was crying all the time…

So, all this year, I’ve been FORCED to wear my glasses – and I have a few cute pairs, but they just aren’t convenient – you can’t see as much as you can with contacts, and your ears and nose get sore from wearing them, if a young child wants to head butt you (yes, it happens at our house) it hurts much worse with glasses on, you can’t run or play sports the same – they just aren’t fun.  11146583_10100496490701616_4971471899792477095_o

But, to be honest, the real reason I’m frustrated with having to wear glasses is that I don’t like how they make me look.  I feel like they hide my eyes – the one thing on my face that hasn’t changed or gained weight…

Everyone compliments my glasses and how cute they are – but the second they are off, without realizing the ONLY difference is I am not wearing glasses, people compliment me on my appearance.

It’s pure vanity.

Today, a new eye doctor is having me try some new contacts – and they feel a lot better and more “cooperative with dry, Colorado air,” than my last pair…but a whole new vanity issue has arisen.

I can’t see things close up.

This isn’t a problem without my contacts.  It’s not a problem in glasses.  With contacts, however, I cannot see close up very well at all.  The reason?  My eyes are getting old.  Most people don’t have this problem until they are in their forties, but lucky me, I am starting early.

A conundrum in my extremely privileged life, I know.

But this wasn’t a problem when I was younger.

I must continue to remind myself that with the gift of age comes special circumstances.  Circumstances that some will never be able to experience.  Even bad eyes are a gift – that they open and can see at all is a miracle I too often take for granted.

I am resolved to stop worrying about how I look with or without glasses – and do what I can to see the best in order to work and play and be with my family – even if it means putting contacts in while I play, and glasses on to work – and I’ll do my best to remember that God has blessed me with the ability to do so.

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