When we moved to Colorado, my contacts quit working for me.
I mean, my eyes were so dry they hurt, thanks to a new dryer climate, it became evident soon after moving, I couldn’t do contacts anymore – unless I wanted to look like I was crying all the time…
So, all this year, I’ve been FORCED to wear my glasses – and I have a few cute pairs, but they just aren’t convenient – you can’t see as much as you can with contacts, and your ears and nose get sore from wearing them, if a young child wants to head butt you (yes, it happens at our house) it hurts much worse with glasses on, you can’t run or play sports the same – they just aren’t fun.
But, to be honest, the real reason I’m frustrated with having to wear glasses is that I don’t like how they make me look. I feel like they hide my eyes – the one thing on my face that hasn’t changed or gained weight…
Everyone compliments my glasses and how cute they are – but the second they are off, without realizing the ONLY difference is I am not wearing glasses, people compliment me on my appearance.
It’s pure vanity.
Today, a new eye doctor is having me try some new contacts – and they feel a lot better and more “cooperative with dry, Colorado air,” than my last pair…but a whole new vanity issue has arisen.
I can’t see things close up.
This isn’t a problem without my contacts. It’s not a problem in glasses. With contacts, however, I cannot see close up very well at all. The reason? My eyes are getting old. Most people don’t have this problem until they are in their forties, but lucky me, I am starting early.
A conundrum in my extremely privileged life, I know.
But this wasn’t a problem when I was younger.
I must continue to remind myself that with the gift of age comes special circumstances. Circumstances that some will never be able to experience. Even bad eyes are a gift – that they open and can see at all is a miracle I too often take for granted.
I am resolved to stop worrying about how I look with or without glasses – and do what I can to see the best in order to work and play and be with my family – even if it means putting contacts in while I play, and glasses on to work – and I’ll do my best to remember that God has blessed me with the ability to do so.