Today I was driving through an intersection.
I had the right of way, my light was green.
An elder gentleman waiting at the red light perpendicular to me decided to turn right, into my path.
I was able to slow down, but I honked to let him know I was there.
He flipped me off.
Now I know he was the one who made the mistake. I know it was ok for me to honk to let him know I was there. I know he was probably upset and flustered and that’s why he did it.
And yet, I wonder, what I did wrong to upset him.
I feel responsible for keeping everyone happy – a pathological need, probably stemming from socially imposed gender norms and my own insecurities.
But sometimes, people get angry at you for reasons you can’t control.
I shouldn’t feel bad.
And yet I wonder….